Ah, but I was premature in writing the post titled "The Blahs", for there is another item to add to that list: My grandma died.
She's had Alzheimer's, and several illnesses in the past few years. My mom and she had a terrible relationship over the years. I was sort of close to her when I was young, but this eroded or was never quite, and we weren't close in recent years. She never met OC.
There's a long story here, of course, but I don't think I'm ready to tell it.
I have been feeling okay; have been thinking about what I want to do and then doing those things. Now, I'm feeling tired. I've been a trooper, and I need a break.
I need comfort, support, to not have to be strong, just for a little while...